Yeah, yeah, I still wanted to be 21. If I only knew then what I know now. Time flies. It flies by so fast I can barely keep up. I guess it has something to do with getting older - (doesn't everything!) and knowing that my "time" here on the ol' planet earth is less than the number of years (55 to be exact) that I've spent here so far. That's of course, assuming that I will not live another 55 years. Heavens, I can't even imagine that.
Anyway. I tell my students that time is a "resource." We all have the same 24 hours in a day and we have total control over how we use the resource of time.
I know that time isn't going by faster, but it sure feels that way and it's a little scary. There are so many things I still want to do. Since I've become a grandmother the sense of time has become even more relevant. I don't want to miss a minute of Cal and Lilly's childhood. I'm blessed that I am so close to them. Just the other day I was talking with JJ at the quilt shop and she was telling me that her son and his wife and their little 1 year old son are considering moving to Virginia. That's about as far east as you can go without needing swim trunks. Listening to her really made me feel gratitude for being so close to my grandchildren and trying to be a good Nana. She was saying that she didn't really get a chance to be the kind of grandma she hoped and wanted to be with her other two grandchildren who are grown now. So, she was really looking forward to having a close bond with this new one. The reality is, if they move to VA, she may not see her little grandson more than once a year. Of course, families have to do what's best, but my heart was touched listening to her.
I guess my refining moment here is that I always want to be close to my grandkids - but the reality is - that may not be the case.
Time does fly. So, I don't want to miss a thing - and I'm never going to wish my life away. Yes, mom. You were right....again.
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