Refining Moment #1

I decided last week that way too much "life stuff" was happening that requires my mental, emotional and spiritual capacities to be in full gear. I realized that there must be something about entering the second half of life that makes these experiences settle into a place in my heart that may not have been accessible the first half of my life. Now, there are times when I feel my heart is about to burst - and it's not strong enough to support the love, hurt, worry and joy that it needs to contain. As I've gotten older and entered into these "golden" years of my life things have taken on a new meaning. The thing that makes being in my 50's somewhat uncomfortable is the sheer reality that I will be spending less time on the planet than I have put in to this point. It's a strange and surreal feeling. I often feel I can't keep up. Time is going by too fast and I have way too many things I want to do, say and feel.


When I was young, my oh-so-wise-but didn't-know-it -at-the-time, mother used to tell me, "Don't wish your life away, girl."  It wasn't that I wished my life would go away, but there certainly were times I wished to be older, away from the day-to-day drama of living in the 60's with a divorced mom who had turned to alcohol to solve all her problems.

With that said, I have no regrets about my youth. People often ask me how I turned out so optimistic, outgoing and joyful about life. Well that's for another post, and that story certainly qualifies as a boatload of refining moments!

In the meantime, I will focus on sharing moments that refine me in some way.
The definition of refine is: to bring to a fine or a pure state; free from impurities.  That's really all I want to do the 2nd half of my life is to understand life in it's simplest context, to give meaning and definition to everything I do. I want to be able to speak my truth. I want my children to understand the power that comes from seeking the truth for themselves without fear.

So, this blog is about those moments that teach me something. Moments that give me joy, moments that force me to come to terms with who I am, moments that make me laugh and moments that provide clarity and perspective to an otherwise confusing world.



So here goes.